Pausing from pictures for poetry...

"Ghost Text"

The curtain closed on calm,

And the sweat bled from my palms...

As I looked down and saw her text,

Suddenly a little boy stood wondering what to do next...

Breath strained from sitting motionless,

Pulse screaming, feeling like such a fucking mess...

From butterflies in my stomach to a

Panic in my chest...
A lot I didn't know how to process

I wanted to answer her

But, I was also unsure...

I thought,

"Remember what she did to us?

Remember how it hurt?

Remember how we cried for month,

After she treated us like dirt?

Remember being ignored and

Being shown she didn't care?

Remember being disrespected and

Treated unfair?

Remember all the lies she told

And how our warmth was met with cold?

Have you forgotten all the empty words she spoke

Or how she left us broken and without any hope?

But still I answered,

"How are you. I missed you."

And then we relived everything

I wish I never went through...

Once again wondering,

Why am I so fuckin' dumb?!

...Ever since I first saw her,

It seems, this fool stayed sprung...

Just a sucker for a woman

That don't love me none,

To me she is a queen,

But to her I'm just a bum...

Abandoned by her highness,

In loneliness' kingdom

- Bsomb4

A little more poetry

I try not to look back, but sometimes I just can't help it...

"The Sun Shining Off Her Lips"

Between our lips

Lay shadows cast

By yesterday...

...When the radiant sun shined off our hearts,

As I felt your gravity;

...When love lead us through passionate exchanges of life and energy,

As I melted in your caress;

...Before hurt's eclipse,

When heart weren't scared or fragmented by the darkness;

...Before the blue hue turned black,

When kissing you was my Summer sky.

...Between my lips

Lay silent prayers for

Yesterday to shine again.

-Bsomb4

Feelin' poetic again...

"'It's' Complexity"

I knew It approached

...I recognized It's sent 

...It's warmth

& the sound

That It makes as It

Creeps into our hearts

I knew It was coming,

& so It came,

To make us play

It's complex game!

First a tickle &

Then a lift,

Then It inspired...

Our worlds to shift;

It inspired our

Arms to hug & lips to kiss;

It inspired our 

intimate moments in night's darkness;

It inspired our thoughts &

Inspired our words

It inspired us both

To please & to serve;

To want & to care;

To give & to share;

To look for each other & 

To work to be there!

It inspired feelings

That were beyond compare;

It inspired so much

& made one from a pair!

It lead us through smiles, 

laughter, 

and song;

Through days that were short

& nights that were long;

It lead us to find ways to 

right what was wrong,

By teaching us wisdom

while growing us strong!

It lead us on paths

That seemed too lengthy and far;

It lead us, and built us,

To be who we are...

Sadly, though, what I feared

Came to be;

Since I knew

It's complex game was temporary;

It couldn't stay forever

& had to leave eventually;

Yet, I regret nothing

& cherish every memory!!

...I recognized It's sent 

...It's warmth

& the sound

That It makes as It

Creeps into our hearts

I knew It was coming,

& so It came,

To make us play

It's complex game!

-Bsomb4

A hard lesson to learn.

They say hind-sight is 20/20. Sometimes it hurts to look back, though. But, a lesson can always be learned, when we look at the past honestly and without bias. I've learned a lot about love, in my time. This is a poem about one of the hardest lessons that I've ever been taught. Never take those who love you for granted!!  

"Tearful Hind-sight"

Love,

Though I know it will be 

In vain, 

Let me make this

Effort to put into words

All that I feel for you

...My beloved,

Queen of queens,

In you, I have found

Refuge from 

Life's storms!

You give, to me, 

The peace

Of being whole,

As you've filled 

Every void & 

Mended every wound that 

Afflicted me...

You lit

My Sun's flames & 

Became the 

Center of my 

Universe,

As you lifted my 

Lowest lows,

To heavenly heights,

On angel's wings...

Without you,

My world will be 

Lost in the cold

Darkness of an 

Imploded universe...

However, even if 

My body was broken;

My family was buried;

My friends had turned enemies; &

My pockets were empty,

With you

My world remains 

Complete & serene...

My heart beats;

My blood flows; & 

My lungs breath

So that I may 

See you & find the 

Paradise in your embrace; the

Euphoria in your caress; & 

The understanding of

What it is to 

Die, & be reborn, 10,000 times

As we kiss...

For you,

My moon sets,

My sun rises, & shines,

My seasons change, & 

My will finds

Inspiration to make

The world mine,

So that I could 

Give it to you

...Still

These words,

With all the depth of their meanings,

Are but a 

Feeble attempt to 

Express 

All that you

Grow inside of me!

Since what you

Seeded in 

My heart 

With your beauty, &

Nurtured in

My soul

With your

Kindness & care,

Is the 

Truest, most pure, & 

Deepest, of undying loves...

& that love for you 

Will only grow, as it

Transcends 

Time's boundaries & 

Lives beyond 

Eternity!

...If only

I knew then what I know now,

I wouldn't be sitting here 

Wishing I would've

Said this to you,

When I had the chance

...Could've, should've, would've...

-Bsomb4 

A poetic night

Thanks for checkin' out the Bsombin' blog! I've been working on photography a lot, lately. But that isn't to say that I haven't been wearing my other "creative hats" too. I haven't taken the time to photograph my newest pieces, and I have a lot of drawings that need to be photographed too, to share. I'm also working on a new mix to post soon. But, for now, I wanted to share some more poetry, to break up the steady flow of captures a little bit. I hope you enjoy, and check back soon for more Bsombin'!

"Lead Through The Rough"

When we first met

I knew that, through you,

I would grow

...Little did I know that it would be:

Strength, through pain;

Serenity, by going insane; 

Purpose, while picking up the remains;

Peace, after a war between my heart & brain;

& the feeling of being complete, after being completely drained...

Now that I know me,

& have been set free,

I just wish you could see

What you've helped me to be

Bsomb4

Valetine's Day blues

A poem for the lonely and broken hearted, to end Valentine's day...

"Nobody's Valentine"

I ain't nobody's Valentine,

And nobody is mine!

Nothin' but a bouquet of memories

This Valentine's day,

It's better to have loved and lost,

Or, at least, that's what they say...

But, I'm  missing you so much, right now, as blues turn into greys, 

While cold replaces what was once the warmth brought by sun rays,

With a melancholy mist and a sad seductive haze,

I see our Valentine's days past, leaving me in a lonely daze.

...All the years, since then,

Remembering you, again and again.

I guess, that's why, after all this time,

I still ain't nobody's Valentine & nobody's mine.

-Bsomb4

It's getting close to Valentine's Day!

...Not that it matters to a single guy like me. Lol. But as a poet, I can appreciate the beauty of the day reserved for lovers and romance. After all, what's more romantic than poetry?! I'll be sharing some poems for lovers, and the heartbroken, through out the rest of the week, in honor of St. Valentine and his lover's holiday. Here is the first one, for the lovers out there. I hope you enjoy!

"Love, Unspoken"

We have our secrets,

Sweet truths that we don't share;

Keep quiet about feelings,

Pretend that they're not there;

The most intimate moments between us,

Yet, we act like we don't care;

&, of the emotions we are feeling,

We try not to be aware...

...Together,

Glowing from the other's charge,

We lay in the dark;

Both our hearts burning up,

From what started, simply, as a spark;

Although it wasn't our intention,

On one another we left our mark;

Yet, on all the feelings between us,

Neither one of us will remark...

You are the one I lie to myself about,

My love and my muse,

Because it scares me to face 

All of your beauty and loving "truths".

...So, we continue to speak,

Without word,

And spending time...

Though  unspoken,

You know my hearts yours and 

I know that yours is mine.

...You are my lover.

-Bsomb4

Happy Father's Day to all the dads, soon to be dads, & single moms doin' their baby's daddy's work!!

Thanks for checkin' out Bsombin'! Today is Father's Day. The day I look back on my life to reflect on all the wonderful blessing that being a dad has brought me. When God gave me a seed to raise, he gave me purpose, motivation, inspiration, strength, courage, & wisdom that I never knew before. He gave me a little friend to help understand life & this crazy world we live in. Just as much as he gave her to me to teach & guide, he gave her to me to learn from & be lead by. He helped me to see what I am capable of, & what I can do, in order to be a better person (&, in doing so, a better parent), because he put a profound love in my heart, that I can't explain with all the words in the world, that made me want to be the best example I could be for my little angle. It is a very happy day for me, being able to celebrate the joys of having a child. ...recently, I have had a lot of friends tell me that they are expecting little ones of their own. So this Father's Day, I want to share a poem I wrote in anticipation of being a dad. I hope you enjoy & check back soon for more bsombin'! 

"Father-to-be"

To my first born...

As I wait for you,

With a thankful heart

Which races on thoughts of

Knowing it's new heir &

Purpose, 

A silent storm stirs my soul...

The air of anxious joy, 

& new found love,

Excite the ocean of emotions,

While they open the 

Gates of existence to 

Change

My mind grows wings of 

Love, & faith,

& flies like a Phoenix 

Towards an optimistic sky,

While I exhaust the 

Possibilities of 

Who, what, when, where, why, how, how long, & what if...

Meanwhile...

Blessed eyes

Gaze at the 

Swelling seed that will be

brought forth by the 

Budding Flower 

I love,

Eager to know the 

Farthest reaches & 

Full extent of 

A beautiful vision

-Bsomb4

Heartache, in poetic form, with an old illustration

Here's an old drawing that I did years ago, to accompany a new poem I wrote. 

"My Yesterday Sky (Mi Ayer Cielo)"

Your embrace...

The sunshine for my blind heart to see

The fingers that hold the stars in my sky,

On webs; spun of hopes & dreams; interlaced with warm cozy memories,

Tickle & Sooth my heart's ancient soul in it's deepest wounds & on it's most tender bruises 

...& they belong to you

The hands that are my gravity, 

& hold my planets; & their moons; in orbit,

Keep me from spinning out of control & tearing myself apart, 

While they paint the nebulas; of inspiration; that have formed galaxies throughout my deepest inner space

...& they belong to you

The arms that carried my fallen stars also belong to you & they held...

The sunshine for my blind heart to see

...That is,

Until you saw that we just can't be, 

& that it was time to let go 

& set the universe free...

Now,

A black hole is all that is left of me

-Bsomb4

A painting with a poem

Hi & thanks for checkin' out Bsombin'! Below, are the 2 pieces I was working on, from the previous post, now completed. I also wanted to share another poem, along with the paintings. I wrote the poem a while back, but have been having more dreams, lately, like the one that originally lead me to write the poem. Although the two weren't intended to go together, I think they work together beautifully. I hope you enjoy them both! Thanks again for stoppin' by & check back soon!

"As I Slept..."

I held you last night,

For the first time in a long time,

After so much time spent longing

The sight of you 

Quickened my pulse,

Weakened my knees, &

Sent my world into a spin,

As my greatest weaknesses 

Quickly took to governing over my

Strength & fortitude  

The sound of your voice 

Calmed the chaos in me,

Settled my stirred mind, & 

Brought the two sides at war to

Peacefully agree on 

Where paradise exists & 

What euphoria feels like.

When you held me 

I felt the warmth of the womb,

While the dead were resurrected from their tombs...

I was healed of all wounds,

And made to swoon,

As angels crooned 

& carried me through 

The sunshine that leads to Heaven

...As I slept,

My heart prayed for you and 

Lead my 

Mysterious mind to 

Dream of you.

Bsomb4

My Princess' Birthday!

Hello world, thanks for checkin' out Bsombin'! Today is my daughter's Bday & it's a big one! ..."The big 1-0! Lol. ...It's been a decade since I was blessed with the greatest gift God has ever given me. So hard to believe how fast time flies when your having fun! She is the single best thing to ever happen to me & I am the happiest father the world has ever know! Without a doubt, she has helped me to grow & learn just as much as I have helped her, over the past 10 years, and I wouldn't be the man I am if I hadn't been given "God's precious gift"(...that's actually what her name means in Hawaiian). In light of my daughter's special day, I'm going to share something I wrote for her when she turned 1. I hope you enjoy my daughter's birthday poem & check back soon for more Bsombin'! 

"You Make Me"

Your mommy & I made you

And then the two of you made me...

...Happy & grateful;

...Think & grow;

...Feel & heal;

...Open my eyes & realize...

...How much I lacked before;

...What I'm made of & why;

...Where I'm going & how;

...Just how good & bad...

...Love can feel; 

...Life can be;

...I react with emotion as inspiration

I was reborn, 

When you came into this world

So, Just as 

I helped make you,

you make me...

Bsomb4 

Happy Father's Day!

...& thanks for stoppin' by Bsombin'! It's Father's Day. In light of that, here is a poem I wrote to my daughter...

" My Sweet Pea"

Made to be,

Unexpectedly...

Your first mention brought

Worry & Uncertainty,

But, after a second, 

I found jubilee

Knowing that soon I'd be

Your daddy!

Once it all set in,

With goosebumps on skin,

I puffed my chest out, & 

Picked up my chin,

Then I turned to the world & said,

With a grin,

"Today is the day my

New life begins!"

I felt that I needed to 

Change & refine;

I knew that I needed to 

Focus my mind;

I knew that this process would take

Work & time,

But I had to make sure that, 

For you, I could shine!

The day you were born,

The weak in me died,

So, I struggled & fought,

I tried & I tried,

& as I struggled & fought,

We've grown

Side by side,

Now, I've loved you & taught you & 

You made me feel pride!

Because I was 

Blessed, with the 

Best kid in 

This world's history,

A luckier father

There never will be!

...Dedicated to my Sweet Pea!

-Bsomb4

More from my book of poems...

I've been writing a lot lately, in efforts to finish my book of poems. I've completed about 60% of the book & I am working to have it finished by the end of July. I've written about a variety of things, for this book, but the majority of it is poems about love. ...Love for self, love for family & friends, love & heart break, etc. ...A lot about love all around. Here is another one of my more recent poems that I'd like to share...

"Glacier"

I saw hellfire,

In your eyes,

While my 

Soul shivered from 

The cold you projected,

Sitting sentenced to the 

Moon with no sun

...Nothing but 

Fallen stars, & burnt out streetlights,

On my 

Blvd. of broken Dreams

I am heir to the 

Pains of too much pleasure

&, find myself set on the

Ends,

Regardless of the 

Means,

...A self-fish 

Swimming in a sea of 

Glutton, & Lust, that's made

Arctic by the 

Glacier 

We froze 

...Love's resin

Turns to 

Cold crystals, 

While 

The skull dweller's 

Bitterness 

Runs down my spine &

Infects my 

Warmth with 

Chrome 

Shadows

You are the 

Eclipse that turned

My Mayan skies

Black & cold

While my 

Temple 

Burned for you

I remember
The hellfire 

In your eyes,

While my 

Soul shivers from

The cold you 

Left me with

-Bsomb4 

A poem about remembering what we've lost...

Thanks for stopping by the blog! ...In life, we all suffer losses. Regardless of whether it's a loved one passing away; a romance coming to an end; or just loosing touch with someone who you were once close to, having someone you care about disappear out of your life is one of the hardest parts of growing old. ...While I was meditating today, I thought about all the people who I've lost, or had disappear out of my life. I couldn't help but breakdown in tears as I did. Afterward I thought about how difficult it is to loose love & how amazing it is to be blessed enough to have it when we do. As I thought, I found a need to write. ...So I wrote the following poem. However it may apply to your life, I'm sure everyone can relate to this poem in some way or another. With that said, I want to share this with you in hopes that it will remind you not to take the time you have together, with your loved ones, for granted & to appreciate the ones we love while they're still here!

"The Thought Of Loosing You"

I try not to 

Look back

Because, 

When I do,

I can't help but 

Miss & 

Think about 

Loosing you

We walked in the

Sunshine &

Ran in the 

Rain, 

We laughed through the

Good times & 

Cried through the 

Pain

You taught me, & 

I showed you,

A world full of

"New",

You learned & 

I saw & 

Together we

Grew

When I start 

Looking back on the 

Times that we had,

It's a roller coaster ride of

High/happy & 

Low/sad

First,

Jubilee,

When I think how

You shined,

Then, 

Total despair, 

Knowing you 

Left me behind

It always ends

Sad,

The "ride" stops on 

A low,

& I'm always 

Left asking

"Why did you 

Have to go?!"

Please forgive me for

Trying to forget

The past, 

But, I must, to survive

...If I don't,

I won't last

I fight, & struggle,

Everyday,

To move on,

But, it hurts & 

I miss you so much,

Knowing you're

Gone

The truth, 

Though,

I know, is 

You will always 

Haunt me

...You'll stay in

My heart 

Through the rest of

Eternity 

Should eternity ever

Conclude,

I pray that the 

End is where 

I'll find you

-Bsomb4